Even though I’m decidedly NOT a psychic (just in case you were still wondering), I’m a believer. Not hardcore, mind you. Just casually. I read my horoscope, I like knowing people’s signs (I’m an Aries. You?), I find Tarot fascinating, and I’m pretty sure there are people who actually are psychics (just not me). I like all that mystical hoopla; it taps into my inherent hopefulness of supernatural things. Like unicorns and fairies and hot vampires who won’t actually kill you.
When I need some extra insight or a different perspective, I sometimes head over to Llewellyn’s Web Tarot. Just to see, you know? Just in case.
So when things went wonky with Lancelot (update: they’re still wonky, but we’re hopeful), I cast about for guidance and checked to see what the cards had in store for us. These results are from about a month ago, but I saved them because they were so appropriate.
Queen of Swords - Reversed, in the Cover position.
Indicates the querent in relationship to the present situation.
Overweening ambition. Greed and lust for power. Dangerous, even violent woman. Fanatical zeal. Abuse. Jealousy.
Who, me? Dangerous? Greedy? Violent? Fanatical zeal? Nuh-uh. Ok, I kind of am jealous by nature. I’ll give you that.
The Star in the Cross position.
Represents the positive forces or assets in the querent’s favor.
Hope. Inspiration. Guiding star. Moment of grace and peace. Freedom. Early signs of life taking on a new pattern. Freedom after trials. Chance for escape. First sign of dawn. Release. Self-reliance. Clever, inspired ideas. Listening for direction. A quickening. Salvation. Empowerment. Destiny. A time of farseeing. Taking steps to save one’s self, not giving into resignation. Enlightened idea. Planning. Thaw of the ice. Return of life force. Rejuvenation. Drawing strength from nature.
Okaaaay. I’m getting the drift here. This “break” — or whatever the hell it is — is definitely giving us a chance to become more self-reliant, change things up, and think about where we want our lives to start heading. And for me, I’m taking care of myself and soldiering on. Lancelot, for his part, is walking on the beach every night, so he’s definitely drawing strength from nature.
Six of Wands Six of Wands in the Beneath position.
Can be viewed as a message from the “higher self.” It can also reflect the querent’s potential aspirations.
Acknowledgement of accomplishments. Victory parade. Accolades, admirers, and gratitude. Respect of one’s peers. Contributing ideas to a group project or cause. Leadership and established reputation. Good standing. Recognized authority. Having the confidence of the community. A success being more than one had hoped for. A sense of satisfaction. An original, daring thought brings victory. Honours.
Yep, seems pretty accurate. I do want to start accomplishing more, moving up in my career, developing my writing. This applies to Lancelot as well. He’s definitely casting about for what he should do to succeed and thrive and develop professionally.
King of Pentacles King of Pentacles in the Crown position.
Represents past events and influences that color and give rise to the current situation.
A proud, self-assured man. Established wealth. Security and social status. A grounded, practical leader. An intelligent man who, if not talented himself, values and supports the gifts of others. Recognizing the value of culture to a society. Money with ethical conscience. Practical help and skills. A supportive husband.
I’m not sure about this one. It could be my dad, who helped us so much in getting the restaurant started, who believed in us. It also makes me think of Lancelot and how he was before the restaurant, before he started struggling with his career. I think he’s still that guy, but he’s lost.
The Moon - Reversed in the Behind position.
Represents the preoccupation of the subconscious which filters into waking life, affecting moods and outlook. This is the underlying theme of dreams and the emotional undercurrent in the querent’s life.
Lies. Danger near water. Betrayal. Fear. Repression. Poor judgment. Feeling alienated, removed from life. Having to contend with an exhausting, lawless imagination. Paranoia and hysteria. Mental illness. Lunacy.
Oof. This one… This one hits close to home. I’ve definitely been afraid, mostly since closing the restaurant. I’ve just been, well, beaten I guess. I cut myself off, I hid, I nursed my wounds, and for far too long. And I worried about Lancelot’s depression. He’s been beating himself up for “poor judgment” regarding the restaurant and school and so many things. Talk about alienated and removed from life, he removed himself from his life.
Strength in the Before position.
Represents the state of the querent’s relationships with others.
Courage. The determination to overcome obstacles. Inner strength. Spiritual strength. Consistent effort. Conviction. Having the strength to persevere. Being able to withstand naysayers and judgments of others and not be deterred. Facing one’s fears. Being true. Harnessing passions that threaten to overwhelm but may be tamed with compassion and the will to overcome. Faith. Vitality. Ability to endure failures, losses, and disappointment, and yet keep the faith. Tenacity. Energy and intelligence. Work. Activity. Integrity. Focus and discipline. Overcoming. Outlasting competition or conditions. Reason and passion unite to bring strength.
Now I’m blushing over a Tarot spread. Because this is exactly how I’d like to be seen. I’d like to think I’m being brave and determined and steadfast. It sounds much better than, say, hopeless romantic or lovestruck fool.
The Page of Cups - Reversed in the Self position.
Indicates the querent’s psychological state and attitudes which can greatly affect the outcome of the matter.
Neglect. Oppression of talent. Begrudging and excluding others. Falsehood. Flattery and seduction. One masquerading as an artist.
I think this means I’ve been kidding myself, insulating myself, and neglecting my needs. And you can bet I’ve been begrudging others for just about everything.
Nine of Cups - Reversed in the House position.
Represents the querent’s environment and unseen forces influencing the situation.
Limited potential and success. Small setbacks. Relationship not carrying the nutrient and stimulus hoped for. Too much in common, whereas diversity brings strength and enrichment.
Shut up you stupid Tarot. Ugh! Why do you have to be right? Ok, so, yes, my job is probably not going anywhere, we’ve most assuredly had some setbacks, and our relationship was foundering. Dare I hope that this “diversity” thing is our mutual branching out, figuring out, growing out?
The World in the Hopes position.
Indicates the hopes and fears of the querent.
Ascension. Opening to a higher dimension. Culmination and synthesis. Enlightenment. Attaining a broader view of life. Moving beyond the personal to become aware of the interconnected nature of life. Harmony and perfection. Peace and freedom of thought. Inspiration and comprehension. Ecstasy. Glimpses, however brief, of the great mysteries of life. Being able to appreciate the larger scene or patterns in life. Faith. Epiphany. A heightened sense of being alive. Purpose. Confidence. Completion. Enjoying life and anticipating its curves. Unencumbered by the trivial. Being in control of one’s fate. Intelligence. Independence. Determination and stability. Strength and enthusiasm. Intuition and spiritual heights. Crowning achievement. Reward and promotion. Graduation. Lasting happiness. As the last of the major arcana, the Universe represents the height of a progression. The Universe card is associated with the four evangelists, Matthew, Luke, Mark, and John, who in turn are equated with incarnation, passion, resurrection, and ascension, respectively.
Well that’s kind of overwhelming, now, isn’t it? I… that’s a lot to hope for. But it tells me that I should hope for a lot.
Two of Cups in the Outcome position.
Indicates the outcome of the matter.
Romance, love, attraction of opposites. Union. Magnetism. Dance of courtship. Entwining energies. Sparks. The flow and grace of a natural match. Forming emotional bonds. Sharing, stability in give and take. Balanced ebb and flow of emotions. Curiosity, affection, and excitement. Most often symbolizes a romantic partnership, but may refer to a friendship or alliance with an emotional component and compatibility of a kindred polarity. Engagement or marriage.
So, we’re meant to be, right? Right. We are always meant to be.
And if not, well then screw you Tarot, you with your ambiguousness and pretty drawings and open to interpretation-ness. Because if I have to I will wrassle you into compliance with what I want to believe, with what I know to be true. Don’t think I won’t do it. You’ve been warned.
I’m warning pieces of paper now. You can call the men in white jackets. I’ll wait quietly.
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