I will honor Christmas in my heart, and try to keep it all the year
In this season of giving and getting and joy to the world and peace on earth and holiday sweaters and lights extravaganzas and homemade goodies and mistletoe — and after all my griping and pissing and moaning of the past several months — it’s time I count my blessings and recognize just how good I’ve got it.
I have a roof over my head, food in the pantry, and loved ones nearby.
I have four happy scrappy hero pups at home who live to cuddle.
I have a fiance who’s willing to work hard to support us, even if that means starting all over in a new field and going back to school.
I had a whole weekend full of rest and relaxation and crime television and Christmas specials and naps. And fudge.
I have a job with good benefits, low stress, and great coworkers.
I have lovely, wonderful, supportive, funny, insightful friends all over the world.
I had truly mind-blowing sex over the weekend, and the fact that we can still do that after 11.5 years makes me giddy.
In a week and a half I’m heading to see my funny and loving and generous mother for Christmas, and I can’t wait.
I have a mom who buys me rubies and tells me when I’m being ridiculous.
I have a dad who is always there to help and laugh and advise and entertain.
I have a brother who stands in solidarity with me in our black sheepishness.
I have a blog that lets me write and write and write, regardless of whether anyone reads.
I have readers who do read, even when I go on about the boring bits.
I have someone who, flawed as he is, kisses me goodbye every morning with an “I love you,” takes out the trash, holds my hand when we’re watching TV, cooks me dinner, fixes everything around the house, fixes my car, mows the lawn, puts down new flooring, likes the way I look, thinks I’m funny, thinks I should be on Jeopardy, wants me to write a book, supports me in whatever I want to do, and wants to marry me.
Remind me of this when I get all weepy and woe is me and why can’t I have everything I want now, dammit, RIGHT NOW? Please? Because I am a whiny little pisspot who is spoiled and sheltered and unreasonable. And this Christmas, finally, all I want is what I have.
Which is kind of a lie because I do want more, and I’m still unsatisfied, but it’s more of a hopeful, aspirant kind of feeling rather than a my life sucks because I don’t have, haven’t done, didn’t get this, that, or the other.
For today anyway. And hopefully through Christmas and into the new year. Positivity, people. Positivity. Fake it ’til you make it. Think good thoughts. Silver linings. Etc.
Yes you do have readers who love you and who ACTUALLY read….but it’s never boring…I assure you!
It is hard to not get caught up sometimes…in all the things we want and don’t have…or that others have…etc…
Lists are good that way…they put the good stuff front and centre and it’s hard to argue around them!
wn’s last blog post..today
It’s good to remember your blessings, but it’s OK to want more. If you’re willing to work for it.
Finn’s last blog post..Here’s Some Stuff I Bet You Didn’t Realize You Needed To Know About Me
Fake it ’til you make it! Good advice that.
Kizz’s last blog post..She’s Not That Cruel
loved this. might have to copy it.
shell’s last blog post..did you miss me?
Beautiful list, hon. Might have to steal it in the next 10 days.
And I’m glad I’m one of your friends and that you’re one of mine. For that, I too am blessed.
Coal Miner’s Granddaughter’s last blog post..Silent Saturday 20: Latest Obsession
Woman, move over. I’ll take a little bit of your life. I think the mind blowing sex shot endorphins to your brain so now you see the glass as half full. If the sex tapers off, then, I fear the glass will look half empty!
mary’s last blog post..Grainy Tattoo Photos
It is important to remember all that we DO have, I’m glad you have so much, and there’s nothing wrong with wanting more.
Have the T-shirt’s last blog post..Putting Things into Perspective
I love me some gratitude. Nice.
A Free Man’s last blog post..I get slandered, libeled, I hear words I never heard in the Bible
It’s easy to get dragged down in the feeding frenzy of Gotta Have. Glad you can see all the wonderful things you already have.
So when the hell IS that wedding going down? I know two chicks who would road trip just to stand outside the church and wave at you!
PS- I would never abandon you – the rest of the blogosphere, yes, but you, no!
we_be_toys’s last blog post..Where Have I Been?
Everyone is entitled to whine sometimes. And I never considered your blogs whiny, and always interesting. Deep.
Yeah. I said deep. Look at me with my tiptop adjectives.
rassles’s last blog post..They Are The Future
WN: I’m so glad you’re back around!
Finn: I’m blessed AND I want more. Talk about stingy.
Kizz: I like to think so.
Shell: You go right ahead.
CMDG: It’s up for grabs, so steal away. I’m definitely going to have to plan a trip to the Atlanta area after the new year.
Mary: I think you’re entirely right. It’s hard to be grasping and discontented when you’ve just had a really great orgasm.
Tshirt: Thanks!
A Free Man: I could stand to be more cognizant of the blessings in my life.
Toys: I don’t know when the hell the wedding is going to go down. 2009 I hope. Sigh.
Rassles: That is the most gratifying thing I’ve heard in a while: deep.
i love this post because i’m so trying very hard to feel grateful for things right now.
bluestreak’s last blog post..Warning: Consuming Raw or Undercooked Thoughts May Results in Half-Assed Blogging